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Things don’t go to plan.



I am trying to keep my blog upto date, letting people know about what I am doing. The trouble about whats going on at the moment which you will already know if you have been following this blog is that I am a student, a mother, an expectant mother and a wife. Wither every role I just mentioned comes certain responsabilities.

Things have not been going well recently family wise, I have only really just started to recover from being in hospital my husband was ill straight after I came out, he was layed up in bed for 3-4 days and now my daugter is ill.

My little girl is under a year and since Christmas when she was 6 months old she has been on and off ill, now its to the point that she is more ill than well, she has lost weight and its just getting worse and worse.

This might sound awful but my current experince inspires me more to do this project as beofre you have children you think it will be easy, you focus on the ohhh and ahhhs having a baby/family, its all very exciting but you forget there are difficult times, stress runs high when a child is ill or there is a problem with your family.

Development of  the Project


Having time with my family has made me think about my project more. Orginally I proposed on image with a sound recording to occompany it and it would be on a website. After starting to plan out what kind of shots I want but also thinking about the type of affect I want to project to have I have decided that to get a message across there needs to be a series of images. A series will allow the audience to get a deeper feel of the story, also I feel that a movement of the images in series in possibly some kind of movie would help build up a story quicker in the minds of the viewers. I have been inspired by some of the youtupbe tribute pieces that are put online, I blogged about them previously during the research module before Christmas.

These are the kind of things that inspired me:

this is a tribute to a girl who has passed away, its very emotional, not only to her family anf friends but to anyone who watches it. The motion of th images, writing and sound creates this ambiance.

This is an example of what I don’t want to create, You can hardly read the writting and the music distracts you from reading it. Its overly emotional which puts power to the message but it made me want to forget the message also.

This has simlar elements to what I am thinking along the lines of but its missing the story and linked element to drive the pictures forward.

One thing I have learnt from research is that if you are going to use emotion as a part of your project you need to get the balance just right. There are many tributes online, many of them are of children who has been lost early or did not make it into this life, and they are heart wrenching but they are important to the people who are involved in them, they are a way of expressing their grief. My project needs to focus on the individual subjects but without making it to emotionally off putting.


In My Bubble

Escape plan from the bubble…

(Reflection on my thought process and work over this term so far)

I have been thinking, trouble I know. A lot of the ideas I seem to have and my thought process revolves around come from within my bubble, what is my bubble well its my life and the experiences current in my life. I use my life as a sounding board for my work, for the thoughts I am researching. It seems to be limiting me!

Another thing I have noticed about my thought patterns and work is that I have great ideas but I do not follow through with them and I stop thinking about how to make them work because I do not feel confident with the technology the should be used to make them. I alos get boarded because I am not passionate about what I am doing, a lot of the time we pass through many subjects in our lives that we just have to deal with in the course of getting from A to B, examples of this are children, work stresses, holidays etc.

I have been limiting myself by thinking of what I can actually achieve and what I have easiest access to. What I am not doing is looking at things from a different angle, I’m not saying to myself ‘Hey never tried this beofre on this subject why don’t I give it a go!!’ What I need to be doing is changing my intake of information so that I can think wider thoughts so that I have a larger pool of thorughts to draw from. 

I have compiled a list of things I am going to try doing or thinking about!:

  • collaboration with actors/dancers/other artists
  • collaboration with MA music composition student. (Recently got Nicholas Peters contact details)
  • Think about a wider theme, what am I interested in what would I like to play around with??
  • Experience new things to get my mind wondering!

I don’t know if this will lead to an exciting new thought process but I am willing to give it a try as I am tiered of failing, even though at the moment it doe snot seam that I am failing but more trying different avenues/techniques and seeing what works for me. I am sure Picasso or Hockney did not get it right first time.


Memory Artifact



The Memory artefact has been loaded on to its own dedicated page, find that at the top of this blog roll under the header picture.


UPDATE….Expanding on idea for Memory


I have been thinking about the Memory project and the obstruction of doing something we have not done before and I have decided upon two things:

1) I am going to use a video camera and create a moving image

2) I want to show or demonstrate a completely different way of looking at a subject.

One thing that I have recently been striving to do is to do is use the camera to see the world from my point of view. From the simple act of trying to just get the camera to reproduce what my eye sees but I have not been successful. I have been talking to a photographer and she has been telling me that a camera can never reproduce what the eye sees.

So I have been trying to do the opposite and use the camera to see what the eye misses, there are hundred of example of this from wildlife photography, sports photography etc, etc. I am also going to try this technique out with a video camera to create moving images along the same line of thinking. I mentioned in a previous blog post that the piece is going to be inspired by how my daughter views christmas, she is 7 months old so I popped some basic research on the bottom of the post about the development of sight in babies. After thinking about how to shoot like this I also started thinking about myself and her future experiences of Christmas. I am short-sighted and as a result always feel I have a slightly different view of the world as a result. I have to choose to put on my glasses to view the world the way others do. The way I view the world without my glasses is similar to when a normal person looks at a person, landscape or light and squints. An artist who I think had  glimpse of this due to cataracts is Monet, I was lucky enough to see his collection for myself in london when I was in secondary school and have been inspired by his master pieces time and time again. One that I particularly like is from his collection made later in life during which he was slowly falling to blindness. My eye sight has got worse as I have gotten older and now it is at the worst it has ever been, if it was not for the brilliant invention of slim line lenses I would be forced to wear very thick lenses so when I look at Monet’s work especially his later years I enjoy someones view of the haze of my vision f the world.

Taking this wonderful inspiration when I started this bog I made a few personal goals the following two I want to focus on for this project:

  • I want to combine mediums, I want to produce  piece of work that combines two or more things like light and sound or photography and moving image or sound moving image and photography etc.


  • I want to do something that challenges me whilst enjoying the work I am doing.

I think that by using moving image I fulfill the obstruction set for the assignment but I also start toward achieving my personal aims as the whole point for me attending university is so that I broaden my skills and confidence so that when I progress into the working world I am not afraid to take on bigger and better opportunities or tasks.

I am unsure of how this will turn out but I am excited to try it out and to expand on a lacking area of skill, camera work and using editing software.



Stopmotion Animation Trial and Error

Try and try again!


After the recent research I have been doing on Stop motion animation I have been having a go myself, not every thought I have had has been successfull.

THe first idea I had been intending  to create a surrealistic fun animation based on my feelings around the memories of my wedding. Using play do and pieces of materials and different items from my wedding I was going to simulate a swirling effect of items in a sequence matching my thoughts on the events of the day. I was going to add sounds to the piece including my voice talking, voicing my thoughts and music, the sound of the music box I had a t my wedding and a background bustle of people, with moments of silence.

I started by making the play do into lips which I was going to simulate open and closing mouth movements with and eyes which were going to move a s the swirling items went round the play do face. I then gathered bits and bobs and started with the pictures. I had not planned very well and get easily frustrated with the models I had made as they kept breaking up and causing issues like staining the backing material I was using to lay the items on. I also just was not enjoying  it and am concerned that I need to enjoy the project I am doing.

Lets try again!


So I decided to abandon my previous ideas and project and try a simple stop motion to get myself going. My husband and I have been together for 5 1/2 year and married for 1 and 1/2, each year on valentine’s day he buys me a tear drop rose, one of the really tacky ones but its a tradition and I love it. He also buys me the wooden roses where ever her sees them as he know I don’t think to much of jewelry but the wooden roses I love.

I decided to tray and play around with this and simulate my growing family by using these roses. I decided to have a rose for myself, my husband and my daughter and make them grow. I did this and even thought it is very simple and small I am pleased with the result.


UPDATE Memory : 10 Significant things!

10 Significant Things in My Life


We have been asked to blog about 10 significant things in our life as part of thinking about the Memory project.

It took me a while to come up with just 10 as when I started thinking about it I managed to come up with many more but I have narrowed it down to the following 10 things:

  1. The birth of my daughter, I created life, I nurtured it into being and I still help her grow, learn and in the future help her fend for herself.
  2. Meeting my husband, without meeting him I would not be where or who I am now, he inspires, encourages and supports my decisions and failures.
  3. Getting married, I simply never thought I would, so much so that when I used to think about it I glosses over the actual idea of it and just go to the part about being married with children, so who knew.
  4. My grandfather dying, on my birthday, it’s not a nice one but its a big one for me and significant for who I think I mentally am.
  5. My Great grandmother passing, she was like my Grandmother as my actual Grandmother was not around and I still miss our chats today, as I got older I found it easier to talk and relate to her as she has such a wealth of information and love.
  6. My childminder who was like a second Mum to me at points in my life dying and being told she has Terminal Cancer, I don’t think I have ever cried so hard, with other people deaths it was either expected or I was to young to feel it totally but with this I thought she owed be around forever.
  7. GettIng an A in Art at GCSE, as no one thought i could do it, and at least I have one A to show off!
  8. The first argument I had with Becky Merriman as now looking back at it four years ago it is the reason we are friends because she is so passionate about things that you know it’s a good thing when she argues with you.
  9. My mother getting ill in 2001, it was the first time I thought I was not going ot see her again in the way is was but in fact she came out of the situation changed, for the better, a better outlook on life.
  10. My dad telling me how proud he was of me for getting into University and then congratulating me when I told him we were expecting our second child.

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